The more I think

about this last week the better I feel.
Allowing each other to go and be ourselves rather than trying to be who we think the other wants, if that makes any sense at all. And then seeing if those two people want to be together would be worth doing. And it gives us both the freedom which feels like what we need just now. And the realisation that because I care for him so much it feels really important to be able to say that his development is much more important than trying to patch together this thing that has fallen apart/been exploded.  As long as he feels the same and really understands what I am saying and isn't just agreeging for the sake of it--which is always a possibility.
Last night I ate far too much crap, loads of chocolate and this morning my tummy hurts so much. I must get on top of this, I'll have no clothes for my interview/new job. Have found out one person I know has also gone for the same job which is a bit worrying (had been counting on her being on holiday when the applications were going in) and still trying to find out if L has applied--all quiet there so far. Have been doing well at getting some real accounts of experiences which I can put into my presentation to show I really understand the situtation, its not what you know but who you know--this last year has been great for creating connections.
And four days in  row off--bliss. Trying not to think about Wednesday, but only 7 shifts left anyway. Wish I had a start date from Liverpool though, I'm getting a bit twitchy.
Right, time for a snooze.